Don't cry for me, I'm already dead

I am Mr Self Destruct-

So I went to Gold's Gym today, they have a great special running right now for joining.
I met with Justin a trainer.
I talked with hime for 30 minutes.
I worked out for 25 minutes with him.
He is nice.
He is strong.
He is in shape.
I am in shape, round is a shape.
I am weak, metally and physically.
I am nice too.

I hope I will be able to wash myself in the shower in the morning.
I am already sore all over.
Some honest soul searching will need to go on.
I have seen the future, and it is not good.